Dutch tea is life lol!!! Day 74!!
Sep 20, 2018
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welcome to Wednesday Oh
so this morning is going it's going
better it's going better there on jeans
myself because it's going better um we
were just gonna go and get ourselves a
drink and just get out of the house for
a little bit see what we can get
ourselves into no I spent most of the
whole morning putting editing my video
getting it posted and then editing
another video for a friend of mine so in
two ways
I've stayed very busy with mine but it
was a very very good very good morning I
took a snap snap picture of what I had
for breakfast this morning it was so
good
but yeah so anywho I just want to check
in and say good morning and I will check
in with you guys in a little bit and see
where we're at
okay we are Wow
all right we're talking hot mess Express
here we are just now getting back we
went in God's I love going to Dutch
brothers it's so funny because it's like
I know a majority of the women that
worked there some of the men too
and so it's nice when I go in and I get
to see everybody and everybody's you
know checking on me and seeing how I'm
doing and stuff and today it was so nice
because we went and one of the girls
that worked there she was like oh my
gosh I just want to tell you that I
subscribed to your channel and I am just
oh my gosh I love it and it just you
know it makes me feel good in it I guess
because beans that I'm able to get my my
life out there and be able to really
show people like what it really is to
have a life like mine you know there's
not a lot I'm not that busy of a person
in the sense of I don't go on big trips
and make my you know my vlogs of
stravagant and stuff but I'm sure I'm
true and real with you guys and that's
what makes it feel so good is when I see
people that I run into that have
subscribed to my channel and you know
tell me how much they like my channel
and stuff it just makes me feel more
validated that what I am doing is the
right thing and knowing that I enjoy
doing what I do every day I wake up to a
fresh new day to vlog and share my life
in my experiences and my ups and my
downs and my ends and my outs it's such
a great feeling for me that I enjoy
doing it and I enjoy that you guys are
enjoying it so
it definitely made me feel good today to
know that you know my channels getting
out there and people are recognizing it
and subscribing and helping it grow
because that's that's the goal here is I
want to see my channel grow and
sometimes it baffles me because
sometimes I'll sit there I'll be like
you know I see some you know channels
that you know they they haven't really
been posting much and they haven't been
uploading and their content isn't I'm
not gonna say it's not interesting but
their content is very bland and I see
their channel growing and growing and
growing it's like and then I stop it I
see my own numbers and I'm just like I'm
stuck like I want to see myself grow and
all these constantly you know
encouraging me like Amy don't focus on
the numbers don't you know fixate on
that because that's gonna bring you down
that's gonna you know it's gonna cause
frustration and we don't need that you
know we need you to enjoy what you're
doing you're doing this for fun and for
Norfolk just fun but we're doing it
because like I've said before this is a
passion of mine
so if motivationally speaking and
sharing a life of somebody of a normal
life and have it be something enjoyable
what's it hurting whether I'm at 100
subscribers one subscriber or a million
subscribers you know and I was like yeah
that's true but it's just you know I
just I guess because I want to see my
channel grow so that I can just reach so
many people that when I see my numbers
stalling it's it's hard not to fix e8
and you know but then when I get days
like today where I'm reminded of what
I'm doing and
that there are people out there that
truly enjoy it and that my channel is
making a difference in somebody's life
that's that's my whole point so I guess
I am doing what I'm supposed to be doing
and everything will fall into place when
it falls into place but yeah I'm just
like oh but when I heard that today I
was like oh thank you so much
but anyways honey don't know so I'm
gonna sit here I'm gonna eat some
veggies veggie chips veggie chips I'm
gonna sit here and eat some veggie chips
and I'm gonna I'm probably gonna sit
here and watch maybe a video or
something I don't know exactly what I'm
gonna do s was taking a nap
he is coloring and my husband is out in
the garage doing something I know so I
should take advantage and do something
with myself and clearly you see I have
not done makeup the last couple of days
I hope that doesn't offend anybody um I
just I have been so tired that's good
baby
um I've just been so tired and that's
clearly something I'm gonna be talking
to the doctor about tomorrow I've been
making a list of things so that when I
go I don't forget something because it's
only taken you know almost two months to
get into him so I have a list of things
that need to be checked on and see
what's going on one would be my
tiredness the second one is my leg my
knee and my back of my leg um I don't
know if I've shared with any of you guys
but I think I did that I um noticed a
little like growth typing yeah I did
show or share with you guys I was trying
to think if I did or not um I might post
a picture if I choose to I'd post it and
let you guys kind of see what it looks
like
but I'm gonna talk to him about that
tomorrow and then I have my meds check
tomorrow as well to see how I'm doing on
my meds that I'm on and an update on my
weight loss with him so yeah lots of
stuff to take care of tomorrow
thank goodness tomorrow can't come soon
enough when it comes to the doctor's
appointment but anyways I think I'm just
gonna take a little bit time down and
maybe catch uh maybe check a show out or
something or maybe I'll just close my
eyes and rest while he's coloring so
anyways I hope you guys are having a
wonderful day so far and I will check in
with you guys
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so as you guys seem we did preschool it
was a quick grace preschool but it's
always fun to do and they are catching
on that's what's so exciting is when I
say a is for what say for wait what's a
for for so that makes me feel good and
then here's there let me show you let me
show on the curve here's their alligator
and then they color their here as well
this one's yours
and then they colored their alligator
but they're touching on and that's what
matters to me is through all the
frustrations and meltdowns and timeouts
it makes it worth it at the end of the
day when I say a is for and I hear a
little innocent voice a so anyways yes
we did do preschool I'm just letting
them now work on their dry erase boards
I let them usually spend about 10 to 15
minutes on their dry erasers just to be
able to practice letter a and color
spiders and everything else because I'd
rather be on the boards and on the walls
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good oh my goodness you guys welcome to
Wednesday night I just got done with my
workout yes I am clearly doing it late
tonight because you know what no matter
what there is no excuse to not get
something in every day and I was like
okay it's 8 o'clock I have an hour I
gotta figure this out because I got a
workout to get in so I took 15 almost 20
minutes
excuse me to do my workout I feel so
accomplished I feel so good that again I
stuck with my my commitment you know I
said I'm gonna do it this way and that's
exactly what I've been doing so I'm
feeling really successful anyway and
very sore so tomorrow is the big
doctor's appointment I have been waiting
for for so long I feel like I have just
been waiting for this appointment to get
here so I made sure to write down a list
of the things that I want to make sure I
talked to him about so I don't get in
there and then completely forget because
I'm really good about that like I'll
give you the doctor's I'll feel really
good about all I'm gonna see him I'm
gonna talk about this this is and then
we get it going on talking about one
subject and then it's like oh crap my
arm like I brought to him about this
this this oh no and then it's like yeah
so I made a list of things that I want
to definitely talk to him about
one being my leg with that thing on the
back of my leg my knee of course my
sense of always being exhausted don't
know why and my weight loss so yeah
those are those are the things um but
today was a really good day it was just
you know I I did a lot of filming for
the craft fit heal you guys is taking a
little longer than I was expecting
the frame that I'm doing is actually an
extra-large frame than I've ever done
before and that's not the problem like I
totally can hand to do that part that's
not even issue but it is definitely
taking a little bit more time than I was
expecting so that's clearly why it's
taking a little bit longer to get my
video up because I've had to break it
into a couple of parts like video
because clearly I'm not gonna be able to
get it just punched out like I wanted to
I thought I would be able to but now you
know the last time I made one I want to
say that the frame of it was a lot
smaller and my babies were smaller which
you would think I thought was hard then
but now it's like even harder because
it's like they just are non-stop but
yeah I'm I'm getting it done clearly as
you guys can see there's sparkles
everywhere so Indy ways I got my shirt
in the mail from women within finally
came gosh I felt like I ordered this
thing like a life ago and that is the
one thing with women with it is it
clearly takes a long time for their
products to get to you though it's like
but it's just like a mustard yellow tank
top house like I'm holding it with one
arm because I'm holding my tripod with
the other arm but it just has like
gathering and then it's just a tank top
and I got it in the biggest size they
have which is 6x I don't know if that's
the bigger size but I think that's me
the size
going clearly I'm not a 6x anymore but I
like my shirts bigger than tight so the
experiences I've had with women within
before is you wash their stuff and it
does shrink a little bit at least us but
my experience has been so with that I
went ahead and got a bigger size so that
way then I'm hoping that it will fit me
a little bit looser so we'll see but I'm
excited because it's like perfect fall
outfit that I have put together I just
can't wait to put it on um but anyways
yeah I just I didn't do a whole whole
lot today I just kind of chillaxed and I
did the preschool I did my workout I
just did bits here and there but nothing
nothing extravagant um tomorrow is gonna
be a busier day at my appointments at
4:15 so I don't know exactly what is
planned all total for tomorrow but I do
know that I think today went a little
bit differently because me and oli were
able to sit and talk last night and get
on a really good page level where we
both are an agreement that you know I
need breaks as much as he needs breaks
and making that time set aside each week
I think will help so I'm really excited
for that to be now in the mix of my
weeks because I think that that will
give me something to work for towards
not work for work for a break but work
towards is knowing that I get that
downtime and that will make it a lot
nicer for me I think that it will give
me something initiative to be like okay
you know what I can do this I can punch
out this week because Sunday's gonna
come and then and it's nice because
Sunday comes I get a wonderful break
right before the week starts so that
makes it even that much nicer so anyways
I am gonna close early too
because I need to go work with Jeremiah
for a little bit on some paperwork that
he brought home my melatonin looked a
little funny yes I take two melatonin
for bedtime but I don't take it until 11
o'clock because then by 12 o'clock I'm
just like okay I'm ready for tonight
ready for some sleep I'm gonna go and
work with Maya on some paperwork for a
little bit and then try and relax with
him for just a little bit and talk wise
day because I haven't been able to do
that today at all um and then get the
kids down for bed because it's almost
nine o'clock so anyways I hope you guys
had a wonderful day today and I hope you
enjoyed the vlog and I will see you guys
tomorrow for sure I hope you guys have a
wonderful evening talk to you guys
tomorrow
sweet dreams
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